Odin, hello! I'm very glad that you took me out of turn and started the Reiki sessions and rituals of cleansing. I can already tell you my observations and changes. In the night from Thursday to Friday, there was an unusual reaction of the body, as if a chill and trembling, a great sweating, and then fell asleep, but as if I did not sleep at all, never had such a feeling. Moreover, I used to be treated earlier because of the allergic reaction, injections, and drops, bruises appeared on my hands and lasted for a very long time, and yesterday, literally, there was hardly any trace left of the bruises in one day. That's how your sessions work! I again have a desire to go in for sports, and I have already begun. Adding to all this, the guys began to show active attention to me, old friends and even new ones. Taking into consideration that fact that I almost did not go to contact for a very long time because of all the troubles and difficulties in life. I already feel that it is easier))) The apartment cleansing in the ways that you sent me, I'll do in the coming days, I'm preparing to move to a new apartment now. I also do the lessons from the mailing list, and I also want to get your full course today. If I start studying the course, can I do my own protection and cleaning in the future, so that there are no such problems as now? I trust you and do not worry about the fact that during the sessions I have a lot of bad programs coming out, I already know it, I see by my fate and life. And I believe that you will remove it from me, as helped to my friend who gave me your contact. Regarding the causes and circumstances of my life's troubles: the magical effect from the enemies is unlikely because the circle of contacts and my life are such that I had no serious conflicts and contacts with people whom I badly harmed. But in my family, there are many reasons for such a strong negative impact as the generic curse. Firstly, all the men are taken to drinking from father’s side. My grandfather drank to death according to stories he was accidentally killed by his daughter's husband, hitting his head against the wall. My uncle (his son) also drank and died, he was hit on the head. My dad is still alive, but he also drinks to death. He also had two severe head injuries and several operations. According to my mother's stories, when father's father died, he seemed to go off the rails. As long as I can remember myself, my dad always used to be a hard drinker, but only now it's a chronic and irreversible process when he can not control himself anymore. One of my aunts (his full sister) hanged herself in February, and last year her son hanged herself also. Dad said that he once pulled his mother out of the loop. The second aunt (another sister) drinks too. So, the most obvious thing we have is a generic curse, which through drunkenness leads to the death of many members of our family. Taking into consideration that there were many problems and difficulties in our family, my father periodically started drinking, got into accidents and other troubles many times. Parents visited many sorcerers, shamans, and clairvoyants. Perhaps this also played a role. My grandmother died of cancer from my mother's side, a year later my grandfather died, he was burned together with the house by a man who had robbed him before, and grandfather reported to the police about the theft. Mom said that it is possible that her sister practiced witchcraft through a shaman to hurt her because they had a very strong conflict in a moment. Apart from conflicts, parents had many clashes with the authorities, litigation, debts. When it comes to me, since childhood I have been exposed to some kind of negative influence because I often had nightmares, often had injuries and bruises. In the third year of studying psychology during therapy practice, I had something of an awareness that I do not live in my body and not in contact with the feelings that fill me. I can say that I was the first time in my body and in the life that happened then. Everything that hurt me, all the problems and difficulties began to reach my consciousness and the emotional crisis began. I was very bad, I cried a lot and did not understand what was happening to me. Then for the first time, I was able to realize all my destructive programs in the subconscious. I left the university because I had problems with my psyche. I was looking for the ways to help myself, was working closely with my subconscious mind, as far as it was possible. I added the work with the body and changes in nutrition, worked out a very large amount of pain, resentments, negative and destructive emotions, I was engaged in spiritual work through awareness as best I could, connection with God, everything I did was done intuitively for the most part. So gradually sensitivity to energy, information, and intuition began to increase. At the same time, my outer life did not develop at all, I did not work long at different jobs, something inside was constantly pulling. There were also difficulties with my personal life, and no matter how hard I tried, it seemed that I ran into the same negative result. I gradually healed myself, I got very good and noticeable results in personal transformation, but still, I felt the interference of something, and whatever I did, I could not clean and remove these "overlapping". So, as I studied myself very well this time, my abilities and feelings, some emotional reactions helped me to realize that I have some kind of external influence, that something influences and controls me since I could not control it and transform as well. I also wanted to say that even at school I had a strange behavior, and I had problems with alcohol in the university, a lot of destructive, negative thoughts and emotions, painful relationships with men, thoughts of death and suicide, although they were more external than my own, I always knew inside of me that I could never do this. Also, there were very difficult periods of hopelessness and despair, perhaps this also played a role and left a negative trace. A lot of negativity I directed to myself at that time, a lot of hatred, criticism. But the further, the more difficult it was to live in such thoughts and emotions, so now this almost does not remain with respect to me. Many bright and joyful feelings arise and there are many reasons for this, and I see them. Yes, and I see changes in relations with people in my life, in communication with them - I have exactly changed inside. About 3-4 years ago I visited a clairvoyant, he said that I was at the top of parental lineage, and judging by the rest of my relatives, I was really given more in terms of spiritual work, and in terms, perhaps, of some kind of generic work and material benefits, and in terms of studying and helping other people. If we talk on the basis of what I know and understood during this time, I have this generic curse for a very long time. I'm feeling it during a long period, and it's more like the sensations of generic and karmic programs that I have to work through. Most of all I had difficulties with a place in life, with work and realization, with personal life and finances, with many repetitive and similar situations, as if I entered the same dead ends. And in general - I just do not have much life in many respects, although often the situations in which much is given are happening, but to live "crippled" is difficult, dreary and takes away a lot of forces that could be used more intelligently. In terms of health, except for the recent incident, there were no and there is no serious problems or diseases now. Somehow, I do not know what else can be and need to be announced. I hope that what I have written will help you in your work. Thank you for your help.)) Have a nice weekend!